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Writer's pictureJenna Mancini Rufo

My inspiration

Updated: Aug 4, 2023

The word that evokes the greatest emotion in me is a name. Nina. Nina is my sister, my love, my strength, my Achilles heel, my purpose. My identity is so intertwined with Nina that it’s impossible to imagine who I might be without her. Nina’s story is also my story.

I was four years old when Nina was born. My parents brought a third beautiful baby girl home from the hospital to join my sister, Laura, and me. Nina’s first six months likely resembled the first half year of any typical newborn’s life, although I will confess, I do not remember much from that time. My first memories of Nina aren’t actually memories of her. Rather, they are memories of a time in my head resembling a Monet painting – fuzzy watercolors tinged with swirls of confusion running into one another. “Nina is sick.”…“surgery”… “Mommy and Daddy are at the hospital with her”…”seizures.”

Of course I know the story now, but didn’t then. Nina has an intellectual disability and suffered from status epilepticus – a period of time where she would have one seizure, after another, after another - when she was just a baby. She does not communicate verbally and uses a wheelchair. Nina needs a great deal of assistance with her daily living. But this is the Nina who YOU see…not the Nina who I see.

When I look at Nina today, I see a thirty-six year old woman of determination and strength who proved everyone wrong. She wasn’t expected to live much past being a toddler, let alone well into adulthood. I see a soulful individual who has withstood more adversity and prejudice than anyone I know could handle. Growing up with Nina, I witnessed a doctor who refused to x-ray her broken leg because “kids like her don’t move around much anyway.” I recall the time she became dehydrated because her teacher believed the spouted cup she drank from was not age-appropriate. More common though, were the stares I’d notice both from other children and adults when we were out shopping, at the playground, or really anywhere. The younger version of me would stare back at those people until they’d catch my eye and look away, embarrassed.

If Nina were in school today, we would say she needs “multiple disabilities support.” Back when Nina was in school, this type of “support” looked like a secluded room in the basement of a West Philadelphia school. 1989 multiple disabilities support in Philly looked like a semi-dilapidated building with bars on the windows adjacent to a topless club and drug dealer neighbors. My parents refused to send Nina to this program. However, without the legal protections available to individuals with disabilities today, they privately paid for her to attend a parochial special education school. While Nina had several outstanding teachers throughout her education, I don’t know that we will ever truly realize her full potential due to years of missed opportunities in a broken system.

My experience growing up with Nina led me into the field of special education. Eventually, I found myself in the role of Special Education Director, and later, Assistant Superintendent, for a large school district. One day at work, the evaluation report of an incoming kindergarten student crossed my desk. This child was recommended to attend a private school for students with cognitive and physical impairments. Not wanting to make such a drastic decision without seeing the child first, I visited his preschool.


As I watched the child participate in circle time, smile at his teacher, recite his alphabet, and engage with peers, the appropriate recommendation became infinitely clear to me. This child would not be relegated to a setting where telling time and counting change was the most ever expected of him. He would attend kindergarten in his public school. 

Driving home from my observation, I began to cry in the car. What if someone had taken the time to see the potential in Nina? How might her life have been different? That day I realized what an awesome and humbling responsibility we have as educators. What might seem like a simple decision can radically alter the entire course of someone’s life.


While I don’t hide the fact that I grew up with a sibling with a disability, it’s not something I have openly advertised until recently. This was partly due to my fear that people would think I have an “agenda” or that I’m in this field for some type of vindication for Nina. However, I realized recently that people who think this are right. I do have an agenda. I want better for our students than what Nina received. Because while Monet’s waterlilies are at first swirling confusion and illogical progression, when you look closely, the masterpiece reveals itself.

I don’t know where Nina’s story ends and mine begins. I can’t separate the two. Nina. My love. My strength. My Achilles heel. My purpose.


A picture from the 1980s of Jenna Rufo as a nine year old girl with her sister, Nina, aged five.  Nina is looking down and is seated in a blue positioning chair.  She has light skin and dark black hair with bangs, and is smiling.  Jenna is seated to her right.  She has long dark brown hair and eyes and a broad smile with her tooth missing on the bottom right side.

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